Wednesday, March 05, 2008
A small speech; very Blue and Yellow.
Some of you might think I've changed?
ALOT MAYBE? or ALIL? or NOT AT ALL?
DON'T LIE! Hah, I can feel it through my instincts.
And to those who know me, my instincts are spot on, not like as though its super powerful. It just HAPPENS to be true time and time again.
Suddenly been so into clubbing right after exams, became so crude in terms of speaking (especially I'm a girl), suddenly been drinking almost every alternative day, even though there is school the next day. I wouldn't go out in the wee hours in the night just to go drinking. If you noticed, it isn't my style to go club/drink if there is school the next day. I was a super guai-kia during secondary school, where I won't dare pon school, bring handphone, or do anything to break the school rules (except for the collar, skirt length and belt issues). And, I would not, not do my homework.
Well, I don't know man. Mixed feelings altogether. I've only been to clubbing and pubbing. Nothing much, really. Ain't defending, merely just the truth. Don't 'ostracise' 'nocturnals' cause some say thats the only thing that they rely on to relieve stress. Then again, don't mistaken for me being defensive. Think about it, why would people in tv-shows resort to drinking all the time after a break-up or when they are sorrowful? Its just chilling out man. Okay, I know as someone older in school, I'm basically someone with bad influence? Yeah, spot on.
Hah, I reckon/feel people calling me a slut, bitch, whore; whatever names you can come up with. Cause I've been sneezing like some urghh.
And I ain't letting this affect my present fyp project, cause we're almost done with our plannings. And I've been reallly devoted to my online business recently. Its like this adrenaline rush of motivation to create more stuff for people to appreciate, even if it means to just looking at it online without purchasing. All the nice comments my friends give, all the nice motivations and courageous statements to motivate me to go into the designing industry, really made my day. (: If you haven't known, my vibrant coloured collection is officially out, with a range of 10 necklaces, 9 bracelets, 7 earrings, 1 bag charm. And once again, to those who've been copying me, watch out arh!
Okay, so if you're not 'happy' with me, just come clean with it hoalright?
My msn is on.
Addios.
my tears dont fall; they crash around me.
The more I think, the more I wish I push stop then hit rewind.
What I would give to have a day back then when no one really cares
There’s forces working in our heads but we don’t understand them
I need a map to find my way out all the time.
These curses lurking in our heads but we don’t want to find it.
We need to come back down and face what we’ve become.
I dont know whats happenning to me, I'm just feeling really emo.
And I've no mood for chats at the moment.
Unless you'd like to come clean about the change in me, I'll gladly reply.
Till then.
In short, Sorry that I haven't been spending time with you.
5:38 PM, goodnight