JEAN CHIN
Because the world is round, it turns me on.
20TH JULY 88
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Such Great Heights
Friday, May 05, 2006
I'm feeling really really down today. I am just really sad. Lots of things are happening at the same time. It really sucks. Be it family matters, friends, NRA and others.. It all happens at the same time all at one shot. It is worst than a FEW Vodka Shots. What I am feeling now, cannot be compared to the dry-burning sensation in you feel in your throat after that few shots. Oh wells, as what people always say, "TIME WILL HEAL ALL "WOUNDS"." I gotta agree with it. It makes sense. Agree? You'll never know until you try it. Sigh.. Over the years, we've gone through such great heights to get to where we are now. After we have reached our desired "destinations", some may get all unhappy about the whole thing. So wheres the point there? I dont know. All I wana say is, no doubt some may not be of one's expectations, you'll somehow see the good in it. I HOPE I DO TOO.
Nonetheless, no matter how sad I was, the Japanese comedy Nigel showed me this afternoon made my day. It really made me laugh my heart out man. I shared it with Candice and Jie. They both laughed their heads off. Gonna show it to my parents tomorrow. Hahaha. Not forgetting Hannah, my best friend, who kept encouraging me throughout the audition today and after that too. She was really nice to me. She even offered to pay for me again for tomorrow's audition and all. No matter how badly I did, she always said that its good, its nice, I tried my best, I gave my all, I will get in and it goes on. Sigh oh wells, its not the money thats the problem. Its my ability. Therefore, I am gonna turn her down tomorrow. As much as I wana meet up with her every week for training. And of course, Caryn, who never fails to cheer me up with her crazy character. Bev who consoled me last night too. The others whom I mix with are also included.
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My dad told me it isnt the end of the world to not get in. I know, cause I was really sad when he picked me up last night. His advise and encouragement made sense. So I am starting to look on the bright side of it, as much as I want it, I may not be cut out to be "it". Oh wells, takes time to master it to perfection.
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I met Matthew Foo today, and I must say, he is.. umm the same old Matt Foo. As irritating as he can get. HAH. It felt weird, to dance together with him in the group. I felt really embarrassed. I couldnt get my steps to perfection. I hope he wouldnt tell ZJ about it please please. Sorry if you happen to read this! ITS SO YOU.
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I am a perfectionist. I yearn for perfection in all I do.
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ADDIOS.ADDIOS.ADDIOS.
1:19 AM, goodnight