JEAN CHIN
Because the world is round, it turns me on.
20TH JULY 88
Peranakan
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MOD Vintage
Shopping
Splurging on gadgets
Fashion & Design
Clubbing
Drinking
Crafting
Bags,bangles, rings
Making Accessories
PINK FLOYD.
Sunday, May 14, 2006
Charmaine reminded me of this during the camp and once again.
Our deepest fear is not that we're inadequate.
Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure.
It is our light, not our darkness that most frightens us.
Your playing small does not serve the world.
There is nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people would not feel insecure around you.
We were all meant to shine as children do.
Its not just in some of us, it is in everyone.
And as we let our own light shine,
We unconsciously give other people permission to do the same.
As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others.
I was all Emo during the camp, Charmaine kept making fun of me, cause I was feeling Emo and simultaneously, liking the emo kids from the same clan. She wouldnt let me off for just once talking about the emo kid and how much of a faggot he was. They all made fun of me! Haha, but its all for the fun of being entertained.
SPASTIC GIRL.
After reading Alison's entry about the camp really led me to ponder on what my purpose and what did I gain from the retreat. All the questions she posted, all the facts she spoke about, made me feel really guilty. The first thing that came to my mind was probably failure. Failure for not being able to achieve ZJ'S goals for this particular retreat. I really think I disappointed the seniors. REAL BADLY. It was a semi-silent retreat, and I couldnt resist the temptation to talk. JUST TALK. We had to remain silent throughout the whole day and thats one thing I cannot do. What we talked about isnt all about the reflection, it was totally unrelated. As a result, Daniel got angry and we thought we were in hot soup. Of course, he didnt scold us, cause I assume he'd thing that we're big enough to know our priorities. Damn, I think it was a wasted trip, as I didnt hear God speaking to me like Julianna or the others who were totally devoted to God. But the thing is, no doubt there are friends who are there to accompany you, the main purpose is otherwise.
Shucks, this is bad.
Nonetheless, I had fun during the retreat and I guess, after watching the Movie, made me realise that God was once a playful kid, just like us. He is like yet another human being, the only difference is that he is perfect and free from sin while the others are not. I got to know him better than before, I grew closer to him and I am reading the bible more often now. Theres this issue about the Da Vinci Code now. Which in turn, is misleading me about my facts of God. Obviously, it all depends on how much faith we have in God. Thats all that matters.
Okay, this entry is so Random! Gosh.
Oh wells.
School today is utterly boring. I could feel the sting of bordem right to my bone. It was that boring. IPC totally sucked. As usual, I didnt understand a single shit. BUT! THE BREAKS WERE TOTALLY COOL. All was fun and not boring! Except for IPC.
While my tests are all approaching. I am so gonna be dead.
I DONT WANA RETAIN!
11:08 PM, goodnight