Confessions of a broken heart
Wednesday, February 01, 2006
but im hoping. tell me the truth. did you ever love me?
its a new skin YET AGAIN.
im not sick of changing it. i think its fun! (:
its simple this time. and its BLACK. haha. finally.
[01 FEB 2006]
NINE MORE DAYS TO RESULTS.
WE'RE ALL SCARED.
candice and i made a deal.
if we happen to do badly -CHOY!-
WE'LL JUMP DOWN THE SCHOOL BUILDING together.
anyone care to join us?
you're most welcome!
then, we can all get recarnated together as one. haha.
Danielle is joining in too! this time, our plans are even better!
we all die together, then, we'll appear on the straits times. either obituaries or the big headlines. we'll be famous Singaporeans man.
not only that. we'll appear in the gunniess book of records for breaking the record of people committing suicide after failing the o levels. we'll do singapore proud and MR PRESIDENT NARDAN will be elated!
seriously, WHAT IF we all do badly..
what would happen?
how would our parents feel?
how can we face our parents? let alone friends and relatives.
how would our friends who do better than us react?
how would our teachers feel?
and lastly, HOW DO WE SEE OURSELVES IN THE FUTURE!
i dont wana retain!!!
SIGH.
okay, i shant talk about it anymore. Lets talk about school.
I feel good today! Because, I skipped accounts. hahahaha. im happy. We all slacked in the canteen. Until when aishah and Vanessa had to do their project. They didn't wana do it in the canteen. So we had to go to a classroom to do it. man they're sooooo hard working. They were all well prepared for their GP presentation. Vanessa even brought her laptop to school to do the presentation! AS FOR ME?! haha. i didn't even do a single research! let alone the presentation. had MB AGAIN. im sick of it. im gonna skip the next MB lesson! my whole project group didn't come today except for me! Thank goodness she didn't ask for anything during tutorial, or I'll just die.
[31 JAN 2006 TUESDAY] i went to jalene's house yesterday to celebrate CNY. i met melissa there!, and her friends too. what a coincidence.. not only we're in the same class, we're in the same project group and we celebrated our chinese new year together! i was one of the first to arrive besides aunty maureen. i miss her dogs! yes. its all mom's fault. she made me rush and go there asap as they all wanted to play mahjong. end up? WE WERE THE SECOND.. we so didn't need to rush. moreover, the rest came like 2 hours later? hmm.. okay, we watched kung-fu mahjong two. gosh. its so hilarious. we all kept laughing non-stop. after which, we played pah-gao(blackjack). and i made 20 for the first round. we all took turns to zeng. as a result, all won quite a bit. i felt bored initially.. so i asked charmaine and geri to go out with me. but none of them could make it. so i had to make do with it and play with everyone. gosh. i sat at the table for god knows how many hours. my butt hurts! made new friends too! (: we all became good partners in blackjack. haha. and its only our side that always gets the blackjack or gorling. haha. our minimum bet was 2 bucks as usual. easy to handle. but we didnt play it the casino style. cause not many people are familiar with it. gosh. even small kids at the age of 6 knows what is ZAO, BANLUCK, ZENG, PONG, KANG and all.. im surprised!
during the after the seocnd round of blackjack, i calculated and won about $42. I CAN BUY NEW THINGS! yes. then, the others came to play mahjong. and was shot of one kah-keey. so aunty anne(the honey chicken stall aunty in ijtp) came along to play. haha. shes pro man. i watched them play until it was time for loh-hay.. ryan, kept giving me that stupid "smile look" and a "L". haha. what i did was i gave him a double "L". lol. he called me a supreme loser. wth. as for the rest, they were playing the hand-game. you hold each other's hand and play scissors, paper, stone. who ever wins will get to beat the person's hand. haha. then ryan came to me and showed me his shaking-red hand. what i did was to aggravate it and HIT IT..and poke him. HAHAHAH. IM A SADIST. obviously, he felt the pain! LOL. after which, they all sang karaoke.( my mom's favourite!) haha. waited for everyone's mahjong game to end and we went back.
its a very very long entry.
these are confessions of a broken heart.
3:20 PM, goodnight